Love of My Life
He asked if he could put his arm around me, I said, “Of course.” How nice it was for him to caress my skin and breathe me in. The way he appreciated me as a woman, as a nurturing form, he was melting just the same. We got closer and held hands, relaxed and looked at the stars. I was fighting my guard the whole time, it would come in waves, raising up and tensing, lowering when I...
Wowee been sometime since I had to write anything. I’ve become sooo stable compared with last year. I guess living on your own allows you the opportunity to grow. Anyway, gonna leave this here, last thing I ever dedicated my time to writing. Completely unfinished: ____________________ She spoke to him, loving him, wanting him, but doubting his returning calls. “Who is this man and why does...
The Present Self to Past Self.
I have learned so much about relationships, people, men, and women since moving out. It’s so refreshing to have this clarity of each position and feelings involved with others. I remember my confusion; finding intimacy terrifying and assertiveness was myth. But now, now things are far different. I’m secure with who I am (which is step one) and am confident in others abilities. I had...
An easy way to be motivated toward completing a goal is to give yourself a reward once the task is finished. (e.g. Once you’ve cleaned your room, finished the dishes and your laundry…give yourself an hour to play video games as a reward!)
I can’t make sense of how I’m feeling. My heart has been taken from me. It’s been pulverized and made to slip through the cracks of my broken flesh. I’ve cried and I’ve cried and no one hears, or they hear, but decide to not take action. This is all on me, it’s never someone else, it’s never an excuse, it’s always been me. But it hurts it hurts it...
And I Rephrase This State of Mind
An uncanny acknowledgement of misunderstandings, not with others, but simply my own. Thus, sparking a distrust that surfaces when emotional tides roll in, dividing My Truth, and defying My Will. Confidence is broken at the surface but remains intact through its core; shaken down, the dirt falls between the cracks, polluting the sanctity of the water. But Oh how Mother Earth, in Her Trinity values...
Rule #52: Always be aware of the possibility of failure even if you work to the highest extent of your ability.
Rule #51: Be quiet and listen to the silence, it will always tell you what you need to hear.
My time is coming soon. It is funny how I am jealous of other people’s popularity, why am I not satisfied with the attention I have now? I believe much of it stems from my knowledge of my spirit and God’s light that shines through me and I want so badly for that to be noticed by others. I want fame to extend mine and God’s influence to others. I want ultimately to be an...
I thought transferring to another college would be a lot easier than it is. I am missing so many classes that it will take me another 3 years for my bachelors… It is confusing because I am unsure of my academic future. It doesn’t sit right with me, I feel like it is a waste of my time and energy. Time and energy that I know I could spend working toward the same future but so much...
I’ve discovered the hard truth about my singularity and my choice to do so. Being in a relationship stops my life. I forget about my goals, responsibilities, and my thoughts are not straightforward. This is why I avoid relationships all together! I am a self-made woman and I cannot allow others to cloud my judgment and steal me from future. Although I say “allow others”, I really...
I’m incredibly impressed with myself right now! Haha and that is not selfish, just confident! I am going above and beyond the expectations of a 20 year old. I am taking on more than I ever have with confidence and security in my future. I want to thank God for being something that guides me on this path. I can’t even formulate words to express my satisfaction with all that is...
Why worry? How would that be beneficial to my emotional well-being? How would that be beneficial to my health? I’m not saying it could hurt to be cautious but when those cautious thoughts become an obsession, it becomes worry. You begin to feel anxiety. My definition of anxiety is the fear of experiencing emotions. To fear something that is so natural, one would lose the right to having...
Here comes the depression. Today, after everything crazy was done, I settled into the state of worthlessness and undesire. As my future flees my feet, my confidence has nowhere to lay but on the ground on a path behind me. I don’t have a connection to anyone around here. The only people that I truly care about live far enough away that I feel alone. There are only a few friends I can...
It’s not a risk anymore. There isn’t a reason to be scared. There isn’t one thing a person could say to stop me. I’m gonna say what I feel, I going to chase after the people and the dreams I have. There just isn’t a risk.
Today will be my last rule for awhile. The past few weeks, I have found it difficult to write worthy life lessons and universal truths. I believe I had a moment of great change but now I must spend my time apply the rules in my own life. This won’t be the end of my rules, but rather waiting for the next wave of change. I wanted to leave everyone with a little food for thought: Robert...
Rule #50: “In our sleep, pain which cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God.” - Aeschylus
God, you always take care of me. I’m sorry I distrust you at times. :/
Who defines the box that strictly confines? Is it I or society? What can one do to explore desires and mankind acknowledge the quest as remarkable. Can one live outside of society and still partake in its colorful arrangement of individuals with meaning? I am upset to think that my future pertains to years worth more of education. There is no liberation when you live within societies boundries. I...
Rule #49: If you want to say something. Say it.
Rule #48: One can find freedom when they stop making excuses.
Rule #47: It’s okay to let someone in. It’s not okay to lose yourself in doing so. No one needs you more than you do. - Syd Abel
I want to live in a world without holidays.
I want to live in a world without holidays. I want to give gifts because I want to, not because I’m obligated. I want to decorate to express the beauty of what I see, not the conventional beauty of others’ ideas. I want to celebrate because of what is important to me, not because it’s tradition. I want to stop the hour long waits in a check-out line, the unmoving traffic that...
Rule #46: The Truth can be found in all of us, but takes wisdom and integrity to use that Truth.
Rule #45: Embrace change. It takes more effort to avoid it, than it would to just accept it.
Rule #44: It’s okay to change your mind, have different ideas, and take a different path in life.
The Here and Now - Recognition of Your Limits
There are things you cannot change. The things you cannot change you shall not try to change. And if you try to change those things, you will not find solace. And if you recognize that you cannot change those things, you begin to understand your limits, and find peace within those limits. And do not cry for what you cannot change, for that power is in Heaven. And find love in what you...
Rule #43: Love is a choice.
i’m dana and i am the most chill person in the world. i love hanging out with cait because she is the second most chill. everyone should love each other and do crafts. so the rule of today is… Love on animals. Plant a lot of plants, especially fruits and vegetables. Stop looking for the sign you’re looking for. This is it. Do it, and don’t look back.
Rule #41: God should not be limited to church or rehearsed prayers.
Rule #40: Music makes us. It reveals to ourselves, how we want to be defined.
Rule #39: “Capable generous men do not create victims, they nurture victims.” - Julian Assange
Rule #38: Everybody poops.
Rule #37: You should never have to pay for help. It should always be free.
Rule #36: If you can’t laugh at your own jokes, you are not funny.
Rule #35: Constant care and appreciation for others leads to a fulfilling life.
Rule #34: There are two ways you can wait: Peacefully or Fearfully.
Rule #33: Some days you do not need to be taught a new lesson, rather, the time to enjoy the ones you have already learned.
Rule #32: Nurture the child within. Understand, comfort, and listen to it always.
Tip 3: Give the relationship room to breathe When you plant a seed in the ground, you need to give it access to sunlight, water, and air; you need to give it space to develop. Your relationship needs room to breathe. Schedule in some ’separate time‘ and just see it for what it is. The developing flower needing space to grow isn’t a sign that it is heading for collapse.
Rule #31: Accepting others for who they are, will help you to accept yourself.
Rule #30: Understand that what is good in you, does not belong to you, it belongs to the Universe, to God.
Rule #29: Everyone has creativity, the more you can be yourself, the more in tune you are with your creative side.
I think God is showing me how important my friends are and how much they really mean to me. I have this idea in my head that nothing is permanent and that I don’t need anyone because we will walk away from each other. But I am finding how much I really need! and how much I already have! And how I worry about one person’s opinion so much that I forget everyone else opinion of me. Why...
Rule #28: We must find reason within our emotions to make the best decisions.
My anxiety is starting again and I know why. See ya lata alligator
I like the things I own
It’s funny how perspective and feelings can change so much. Last night and this morning I was invigorated with the Word of God, nothing could stop me from feeling so good. But over a period of a few hours, I turned sour and frustrated on many levels. It is times like this that I need to be around people the most but find that rarely do I find someone to see or somewhere to go, somewhere that...
Rule #27: Never let someone have power over who you are and how you feel. You are in control.